“Do you love me?” Jesus’, asks Peter. The same Peter who had proclaimed he would never abandoned Jesus but had done so when the pressure was on. As the words pierced his ears, Peter’s soul likely ached with an emptiness that longed to ask the same question of Jesus. “Do you love me Jesus?”
Peter is not alone in his wonder. In a million different ways, we frantically ask God the same question. But “as long as I keep running about asking: ‘Do you love me? Do you really love me?’ I will give all power to the voices in the world and put myself in bondage because the world is filled with ‘ifs.’ The world says: ‘Yes, I love you if you are good-looking, intelligent, and wealthy. I love you if you have a good education, a good job, and good connections. I love you if you produce much, sell much, and buy much.’ There are endless ‘ifs’ hidden in the world’s love. These ‘ifs’ enslave me . . .” to an endless struggle to earn and justify God’s love, but there are no “ifs,” “buts,” or “whens” in God’s answer to our question. There is only Jesus.
Stephen
Quote from Henri Nouwen’s book The Return of the Prodigal Son, 42.


footprints. Footprints that run into each other and cross each other. Footprints that stand alone and even. Some tell the stories of rabbits. Others of squirrels. Of a chocolate lab. Of people. I could go on and on. A couple weeks ago, I noticed a very telling and interesting set of footprints. Rabbits tracks started and then ended. Where they ended, I noticed an interesting set of tracks. Four wide marks on the snow and then nothing. Wing marks perhaps? I can see it now. A rabbit was moving along, making its way up the hill, when swoop! Down came a hawk and the rabbit went poof!
when, surprise, my appendix decided that it wanted to spend the rest its days relaxing on some hillside in France. I take some pleasure thinking about the shock it must have felt when it realized its destiny was a medical incinerator rather than a life of ease in the country. In case you are wondering, I am doing well now. My surgeon at the Mayo Clinic was great. Though, I have a friend who is an anesthesiologist who told me that the job of an anesthesiologist is to keep the surgeon from killing the patient. So maybe, since I am still alive, I should be talking about how good my anesthesiologist was.